The Sick Lion (Aesop's Fables)

          A lion had come to the end of his days and lay sick unto death at the mouth of his cave, gasping for breath. The animals, his subjects, came round him and drew nearer as he grew more and more helpless. When they saw him on the point of death they thought to themselves :
"Now is the time to pay off old grudges."

So the Boar came up and drove at him with his tusks. Then a Bull gored him with his horns. Still the Lion lay helpless before them.

So the Ass, feeling quite safe from danger, came up, and turning his tail to the Lion kicked up his heels into his face.
"This is a double death," growled the Lion.

Only cowards insult dying majesty.

Hubungan Gue

         Gue memang jarang banget nge-posting curhatan gue ke blog gue ini. Well.. Sebenarnya gue juga males nge-posting, selain itu gue juga ga nulis catatan harian gue alias Diary. Yups, itu karena gue trauma suatu saat ada yang baca Diary gue (lagi) tanpa sepengetahuan gue. Selain itu, sehari-hari kegiatan gue juga gitu-gitu aja. Jarang banget ketawa, jarang banget main sama temen (main aja mesti ilegal), ga dibolehin nyanyi, ga dibolehin muter lagu yang ada di handphone, dll. Gue bahagia sama orang lain itu bisa dihitung beberapa kali dalam sebulan. Itu terjadi di keluarga, sekolah, dan masyarakat. Bisa dibayangin kan kalau gue kuper, anak rumahan, ga update, dll. Sumpeh.. Gue pingin banget kaya anak remaja lainnya -_- Masa gue kalau mau main harus diem-diem biar ga ketahuan guru atau ortu -_-
Sorry ya, tadi itu curahan hati gue. Sebenarnya masih banyak lagi sih, tapi gue bukan termasuk orang yang ngeluh terus :-)

OK!! Sekarang kita langsung aja ke cerita gue yang utama...

         Sebulan yang lalu gue barusan dinyatakan LULUS dari SMP 9 Semarang, SMP tercinta gue, dengan nilai yang bisa dibilang cukup memuaskan :-) 

Gue udah berencana sejak kelas VIII untuk ngelanjutin sekolah di SMA 3 (Smaga). SMA 3 itu merupakan sekolah favorit nomor 1 di Semarang yang udah berlabel ISO (tingkat internasional). Tapi Tuhan berkata lain, gue ga dibolehin daftar sama ortu gue. Gue disuruh masuk ke SMA 2 (smanda) yang merupakan sekolah favorit nomor 2 di Semarang. Awalnya, gue sama sekali ga ikhlas karna harus sekolah di smanda, tapi sejalan dengan waktu, gue akhirnya mulai ikhlas, tapi untuk sekarang belum terlalu ikhlas sih. :-P

         Well, sebenarnya gue daftar di Smaga bukan untuk pamer. Tapi karna disana udah termasuk sekolah berlabel ISO yang artinya banyak universitas yang udah booking siswa sana atau jalur undangan terbuka lebar, gue juga bisa lebih fokus kembangin bakat gue yang lebih didukung pula sama sarana disana yang lengkap, teman-teman disana pun pilihan jadi gue juga jadi tambah dituntut untuk belajar lebih keras, dan satu lagi, ada sahabat gue atau bisa dibilang pacar juga disana. Tapi gue ga terlalu mikirin pacar, karna dari awal niat, gue niatnya untuk sekolah bukan untuk pacaran

         Well, selisih umur gue dan pacar gue 2 tahun. Dia kelas X, sedangkan gue kelas VIII. Dia kakak kelas gue, sekaligus pacar dan sahabat gue. Selama gue kelas 8 dan 9 SMP gue udah susah banget ketemu dia, karna waktu utk ketemuan bener-bener sulit, ditambah lagi orang tua dia sama orang tua gue sama sekali ga ijinin kami pacaran :'(, jadi kami pun kalau ketemuan bisa sampai 4 bulan sekali, atau sebulan sekali, bisa dibayangin kan kami juga harus jaga perasaan satu sama lain . Setelah beberapa hari gue ikutin acara di sekolah baru gue, sekaligus gue kangen banget sama kakak kelas gue itu. Gue sadar kalau gue kelas X(10) dan dia kelas XXII (12) SMA, jadi gue juga harus jaga dia lebih lagi karna kami pun ga bisa seenaknya ketemuan karna kami beda sekolah, dia orangnya juga lebih milih pacar daripada acaranya yang bisa dibilang penting untuk dia dan dia pun harus fokus ujian sama kuliahnya. Jadi bisa dibayangin kan, selama dia kelas 3 SMA, hari efektifnya sekolah 7 bulan, sedangkan waktu kelas 1 SMA yang hari efektifnya setahun aja 4 bulan sekali ketemuan+dia belum fokus banget sama ujiannya. Apalagi ini, 7 bulan hari efektifnya+dia les+dia fokus ke ujian dan kuliah, gue bakalan kangen banget :'( :'( :'(

         Orang-orang kebanyakan bilang gini, 
"Kenapa sih ga cari yang lain aja?", 
"Kok tahan LDR", 
"Eman-eman waktumu cuma untuk tahan perasaan satu sama lain kaya gitu, kalian kan masih remaja. Eman-eman tau"..

OK, gue jawab, iya. Tapi setiap kami putus, hubungan sama orang lain yang baru itu selalu ga beres. Dan, kami selalu ketemu lagi

         Hubungan gue sama kakak kelas gue itu udah mau 3 tahun, tapi kami belum pernah foto bareng. Tragis kan :'( Itu karna gue trauma, waktu gue kelas 7 dan dia kelas 9 SMP, kami pernah foto bareng. Dan hasilnya, jelek banget (muka gue) karna gue memang ga bisa gaya. Dan akhirnya kami baru punya foto berdua itu kemarin di Jonas Photo. Dan hasilnya pun agak lebih baik daripada waktu gue kelas 7. Gue tau dia sedih karna masa harus nunggu 3 tahun untuk punya foto berdua, itu karna gue trauma foto berdua tadi :'(

         Disana (Jonas), gue ga sengaja liat nama "Agiel" di nama data handphonenya waktu dia lagi minta crew disana untuk mindahin foto kami berdua tadi ke handphonenya. "Agiel" itu cewek yang dia suka di SMAnya, yang dia kejar-kejar cintanya tapi akhirnya Mbak Agil pacaran sama orang lain dan Rafi akhirnya balikan pacaran sama aku.

Entahlah.. Gue sering berpikir kalau gue itu jadi tempat singgahnya sebentar. Coba dipikir deh, setiap dia pacaran sama orang lain dia gabur sms gue, tapi kalau udah putus sama pacarannya itu mesti dia balas sms gue cepet banget dan minta balikan. Waktu sama Mbak Hana yang teman SMAnya juga -_-

Sekarang Mbak Agil, Rafi juga masih kaya gitu. Sebenarnya gue pingin putusin dia, tapi gue ga mau. Tapi kalau ga putusin, dia tetap baik ma gue tapi dia juga masih harapin Mbak Agil.

Cinta lagi, cinta lagi -_- Gue ga mau gue menua terlalu cepat karna mikirin hubungan gue ma Rafi tentang cinta -_- 

         Masalahnya juga gini, Rafi itu moodboster, dia juga teman yang tiap hari buat gue semangat, sahabat yang untuk tempat curhat, pacar yang ga terlalu setia, berpegang teguh pada gebetan-_-, jahil, baik banget, pacar yang buat bangga karna prestasinya. Rafi itu satu-satunya teman,sahabat,pacar, kakak yang jadi satu semuanya pada gue. Intinya, kalau gue udah liat tentang cewek yang dia suka atau yang pernah jadi masa lalunya itu gue jadi males banget. Gue sadar diri kalau gue ga cantik, gue ga modis, gue ga seperti cewek yang dia idam-idamkan. Jadi, kenapa dia selalu melakukan hal yang sama tentang gebetannya itu -_- Dia tau kalau gue orangnya pesimis. Tapi kenapa dia sering buat gue pesimis karna waktu ketemuan atau enggak, sering banget gue baca dari kelakuannya atau disekitarnya itu ada hubungannya sama gebetan -_-

   Uhhh.. Untuk setiap pembaca yang udah baca curhatan gue ini, gue harap kalian bantu gue dengan cara comment :-) Sungguh, gue itu butuh banget bantuan kalian :-) 

Beauty and The Beast (Belle's Princess)

          Once upon a time as a merchant set off for market, he asked each of his three daughters what she would like as a present on his return. The first daughter wanted a brocade dress, the second a pearl necklace, but the third, whose name was Beauty, the youngest, prettiest and sweetest of them all, said to her father:  

 "All I'd like is a rose you've picked specially for me!"   

       When the merchant had finished his business, he set off for home. However, a sudden storm blew up, and his horse could hardly make headway in the howling gale. Cold and weary, the merchant had lost all hope of reaching an inn when he suddenly noticed a bright light shining in the middle of a wood. As he drew near, he saw that it was a castle, bathed in light.   

"I hope I'll find shelter there for the night,"  he said to himself. 

       When he reached the door, he saw it was open, but though he shouted, nobody came to greet him. Plucking up courage, he went inside, still calling out to attract attention. On a table in the main hall, a splendid dinner lay already served. The merchant lingered, still shouting for the owner of the castle. But no one came, and so the starving merchant sat down to a hearty meal.
     Overcome by curiosity, he ventured upstairs, where the corridor led into magnificent rooms and halls. A fire crackled in the first room and a soft bed looked very inviting. It was now late, and the merchant could not resist. He lay down on the bed and fell fast asleep. 

       When he woke next morning, an unknown hand had placed a mug of steaming coffee and some fruit by his bedside.  The merchant had breakfast and after tidying himself up, went downstairs to thank his generous host. But, as on the evening before, there was nobody in sight. Shaking his head in wonder at the strangeness of it all, he went towards the garden where he had left his horse, tethered to a tree. 

       Suddenly, a large rose bush caught his eye.  Remembering his promise to Beauty, he bent down to pick a rose. Instantly, out of the rose garden, sprang a horrible beast, wearing splendid clothes. Two bloodshot eyes, gleaming angrily, glared at him and a deep, terrifying voice growled : 

"Ungrateful man! I gave you shelter, you ate at my table and slept in my own bed, but now all the thanks I get is the theft of my favorite flowers! I shall put you to death for this slight!" 

       Trembling with fear, the merchant fell on his knees before the Beast.  

"Forgive me! Forgive me! Don't kill me! I'll do anything you say! The rose wasn't for me, it was for my daughter Beauty. I promised to bring her back a rose from my journey!" 

The Beast dropped the paw it had clamped on the unhappy merchant.   

"I shall spare your life, but on one condition, that you bring me your daughter!" 

The terror-stricken merchant, faced with certain death if he did not obey, promised that he would do so. When he reached home in tears, his three daughters ran to greet him. After he had told them of his dreadful adventure, Beauty put his mind at rest immediately.

"Dear father, I'd do anything for you! Don't worry, you'll be able to keep your promise and save your life! Take me to the castle. I'll stay there in your place!" The merchant hugged his daughter.  

"I never did doubt your love for me. For the moment I can only thank you for saving my life." 

       So Beauty was led to the castle. The Beast, however, had quite an unexpected greeting for the girl. Instead of menacing doom as it had done with her father, it was surprisingly pleasant.  In the beginning, Beauty was frightened of the Beast, and shuddered at the sight of it. Then she found that, in spite of the monster's awful head, her horror of it was gradually fading as time went by. 

       She had one of the finest rooms in the Castle, and sat for hours, embroidering in front of the fire. And the Beast would sit, for hours on end, only a short distance away, silently gazing at her. Then it started to say a few kind words, till in the end, Beauty was amazed to discover that she was actually enjoying its conversation. The days passed, and Beauty and the Beast became good friends. 

      Then one day, the Beast asked the girl to be his wife.  Taken by surprise, Beauty did not know what to say. Marry such an ugly monster? She would rather die! But she did not want to  hurt the feelings of one who, after all, had been kind to her. And she remembered too that she owed it her own life as well as her father's.   

"I really can't say yes," she began shakily. "I'd so much like to..." The Beast interrupted her with an abrupt gesture.   

"I quite understand! And I'm not offended by your refusal!" Life went on as usual, and nothing further was said. 

One day, the Beast presented Beauty with a magnificent magic mirror. When Beauty peeped into it, she could see her family, far away.   

"You won't feel so lonely now," were the words that accompanied the gift. Beauty stared for hours at her distant family. Then she began to feel worried. One day, the Beast found her weeping beside the magic mirror.   

"What's wrong?" he asked, kindly as always.               

"My father is gravely ill and close to dying! Oh, how I wish I could see him again, before it's too late!" 

But the Beast only shook its head.  "No! You will never leave this castle!" And off it stalked in a rage. 

However, a little later, it returned and spoke solemnly to the girl.  

"If you swear that you will return here in seven days time, I'll let you go and visit your father!" 

Beauty threw herself at the Beast's feet in delight.  

"I swear! I swear I will! How kind you are! You've made a loving daughter so happy!" 

In reality, the merchant had fallen ill from a broken heart at knowing his daughter was being kept prisoner. When he embraced her again, he was soon on the road to recovery. 

     Beauty stayed beside him for hours on end, describing her life at the Castle, and explaining that the Beast was really good and kind. The days flashed past, and at last the merchant was able to leave his bed. He was completely well again. Beauty was happy at last. However, she had failed to notice that seven days had gone by.  Then one night she woke from a terrible nightmare. She had dreamt that the Beast was dying and calling for her, twisting in agony.   

"Come back! Come back to me!" it was pleading. 

The solemn  promise she had made drove her to leave home immediately.  

"Hurry! Hurry, good horse!" she said, whipping her steed onwards towards the castle, afraid that she might arrive too late. 

She rushed up the stairs, calling, but there was no reply. Her heart in her mouth, Beauty ran into the garden and there crouched the Beast, its eyes shut, as though dead. Beauty threw herself at it and hugged it tightly.  

"Don't die! Don't die! I'll marry you . . ." 

At these words, a miracle took place. The Beast's ugly snout turned magically into the face of a handsome young man.  

"How I've been longing for this moment!" he said. 

"I was suffering in silence, and couldn't tell my frightful secret. An evil witch turned me into a monster and only the love of a maiden willing to accept me as I was, could transform me back into my real self. My dearest! I'll be so happy if you'll marry me."  

The wedding took place shortly after and, from that day on, the young Prince would have nothing but roses in his gardens. And that's why, to this day, the castle is known as the Castle of the Rose.

Who Comes and Never Goes (Cerpen)

       This is the same night I have ever passed before. I’m
 lonely, without a friend or a boyfriend. I just stay at home. Play with my notebook, hand phone or radio. Nothing else, and nothing special. Actually, I just need a friend. Not for doing many thing, but just for accompanying me. Just it. “Huh, it sounds grieving!” I thought.

       

This is the same night I have ever passed before. I'm lonely, without a friend or a boyfriend. I just stay at home.

       I start opening my notebook, turn it on. Waiting for a minute.

Just a moment, my notebook has been active. I turn on the winamp, use the headset, and enjoy some songs of Western. I choose Broken, the song of Amy Lee feat Seeter. It reminds me of two special persons in my life.

“Hufff. Broken… I want to yell that I’m broken…!!!”

Then I check my e-mail. Nothing. Something that I’m waiting for there is no. I check my facebook. Still same. I feel disappointed.

“Where’s my best friend?!!”,  I want to cry.

Suddenly, my phone that I put beside my notebook is ringing. There is a SMS. I read.

“Good evening… How’s everything Sof?”

That’s the message. I frown. Then I reply.

“Good evening… I’m fine. (^_^) I’m sorry; may I know who it is?”

“It’s Rafi. Rafi Anggana Satria.”

My heart suddenly gets pain after reading that message. I read again. I spell letter by letter. RAFI. My heart increase pain. Then my phone is ringing again.

“Sof, do you still remember me well? I just want to know your condition now.”

There is an old pain that I feel again. I don’t want remember it again. But, I can’t flee. I must face the reality now. Then I reply his message.

“Yes, of course. I have never tried to forget all of people that have ever existed in my life. And my life now is very well.”

“I’m glad to hear that. I hope we are still friend like long time ago.”

“I hope so. Raf, I want to know Kiran’s condition. She has never replied all of my messages nowadays. I’m worried about her condition. Please tell her that I’m still waiting for her messages.”

I wait for Rafi’s message. But he doesn’t reply my message again. Something happens. I don’t know.

       9.00 p.m.

       I turn off my notebook. I prepare for sleeping. Then I fall down my body in bed. I remember of Rafi. I remember of Kiran. They are two meaningful persons in my life. And I feel that I’m losing them now.

      I close my eyes and try to sleep. But their shadow is so strong in my marrow. I can’t stop not shedding tears. My heart is pain. Memories with them were so nice. Even those memories bring me meet them in the dream of my sleep. It’s felt so real.

“It will be a nice day.” I thought.

       As usual, I experience my activity, go to campus. I take on public transportation, my motorcycle is repaired. I sit in front of two girls of Senior High School’s student. They are friend’s couple. I look at them, and pay attention for them two. They chat each other and look cheerful. They really remind me of Kiran. I look at them same as with I look myself and Kiran long time ago, where we are always together. Those days have gone. And now, I’m yearning of her. I don’t know the reason why Kiran have never sent me messages again since one month ago. I always try to guess it, but I still get nothing.

       15 minutes later.

       I take off from public transportation in front of my campus. I walk down the street towards my class slowly. Just three minutes, I arrive in my class. Still empty. I wait in front of class. And then, anymore I must look something that reminds me of someone, Rafi. I see a couple is chatting and joking. Romantic but disgusted. That view really reminds me of memories with Rafi. He is my friend at the same time my love. An amazing moment, even though just for a moment we’re together.

My heart suddenly gets pain again. I’m yearning of Rafi. I’m feeling lapse now.

My phone is ringing. It realizes me from my fantasy.

A SMS. From Vina. I read.

“Sofi, where are you now?”

“In front of class. Where are you? Our class is still empty.”

“I’m home. I’m sorry. I have not given you information yet. Our lecturer will not come in. So, we are free today.”

I get surprise. Oh my God. I am sad. “Why am I here? It’s vain.” I’m grumbling. This is not a nice day I think.

“Never mind. Thank you. I’ll go home now.” I replied sadly.

       Then I leave the class. I feel sad, I feel disappointed. I walk down towards gate of campus. But I don’t know where I want to go. I walk with dilly-dally step. It feels vacuous.

 “Ooh I need a friend. Kiran, Rafi… I want you two. I wanna hold you two.” I talk to my self. “I want to cry… I feel alone. All by my self.”

       I want to know Kiran’s condition. I want to go to Jakarta to meet Kiran. But I’m afraid of meeting with Rafi there. I think, I can’t meet them both in a same time. I’m confused. What should I do?

I sit on the chair beside the campus gate. I bend my face. My phone rings. A number that gave me messages last night is calling. RAFI. I’m shocked. I receive that calling.

Just for a while, there isn’t voice. Silent.

“Hallo…” I spook slowly.

“Hallo… Sofi…”

That voice vibrates my heart directly. As a long time I didn’t hear this voice which make me comfortable.

“Sofi… Why do you bend your face? You look so gloomy.”

“Why do you know Raf??” I’m confused.

“I know, because I am here.” Suddenly a voice is heard beside me, a bit whisper in my ear. I turn away.

“Rafi??!!” I’m shocked. I wake up directly.

He smiles nicely. I’m still silent, without a word. All of my bodies become stiff.

“Sof…?” He looks at me.

“Emh.. Yes. Why are you here?” I try to speak, although it’s so difficult.

“I want to take you to one place. Come on!” He pulls my hand and takes me into his motorcycle.

I can’t refuse. I’m just quiet. I don’t know where he will take me to.

       20 minutes later.

       We arrive in one place where we used to meet, a place which is full of memory. For a moment, we’re just quiet.

“Why are you here Raf? Does Kiran know that you’re here?” I tried to open conversation. But he’s just silent.

“Why do you just keep silent? Is Kiran fine, Raf?”

My voice tone sounds hard. But Rafi’s still silent. He closes his eyes. I look at him. Then I remember again our memory.

“This face that always exists in my marrow. And the memories with you always exist in my heart. Forever.” I say with myself.

       And unconsciously, I remember again the moment when we’re together. Very beautiful. He is the one that can make me feel happy. I can’t find the precise words to show my feel with him. Too meaningful. I like this feeling very much, because it’s very pleased fall in love with my best friend. I look into his face in a long time. I float off in my memory with him, with all of my feeling for him.

After a while, he opens his eyes. It realizes me from my fantasy.

“Raf, answer my question! Does something happen with Kiran? You didn’t tell Kiran what happen to us last time, did you? Answer me! Don’t make me worried!” I am quite angry.

“Something happens with Kiran. And that is why I am here now.” He answered dismally.

“Tell me, what happen? Please!” I hold his arm.

“I will not tell you here. I want you know by yourself what happen to Kiran. I will take you to her.”

“So, why do you take me to this place, if you won’t tell me the truth here.”

“I just want you remember all of your feeling to me and our memory here. I don’t want you forget it, even just a little.”

He glances me deeply. Then he takes me into his motorcycle.

       A half an hour we arrive in front of a house. I know that house very well, because that house is one place where Rafi, Kiran and I used to spend our time together. That is Kiran’s house. I have never come to this house for long time. As I know that this house was empty since one year ago Karin continued her study in Jakarta.

       Rafi invites me to come in to this house. I’m still confused, but my heart starts vibrating. Then we are towards a room. We enter the room. I see a woman sit on the wheel chair. I approach her. Then she turns away.

“Kiran???”

I’m very shocked. I hug her directly. I can’t stop shedding tears, neither can she.

Feeling of longing mixed to sorrow.

       After a moment, we discharge our embrace. I look at her seriously. Rafi and I help her to sit on the chair, and then we sit beside her.

“What happen to you?” I asked slowly.

She looks different now. Her body becomes thinner and weaker. Her face is pale. She doesn’t answer my question. She just smiles. I see that she is still beautiful.

“Kiran has suffered liver cancer since several years ago. But she has never told it to anyone. She used to show that she is healthy. And I knew about her sickness one month ago, when her condition was very drop. And doctor told me that she has suffered liver cancer in stadium 4. I was very sad because she hid her pain by herself.” Rafi explained sadly.

I’m crying sob while Rafi is explaining. I feel that it’s not real.

“I’m sad. Why didn’t you tell me about your pain?” I hold Kiran’s arm strongly.

Kiran smiles again. Then she speaks smoothly. “We are same Sofi. Do you feel that you used to tell me anything in your life?”

“What do you mean?” I asked astonished.

“I know about you and Rafi, Sof. Did you think that you can hide your feeling both from me, your close friend? No Sof.”

“I have never intended to lie. I just felt that I betrayed our amity by having feeling with Rafi. And I thought that you have same feeling with me to Rafi. So, I’m willing if I give Rafi to you. And I decided to continue my study here, in Tasik, in order to avoid you two. I have never intended hiding all this from you, because I have forgotten all now.”

“Hmm, one more time you are lie. I know that you two are still in love. Rafi and I were just friend, same with you. I love Rafi same as Rafi love me, as a best friend, just it. But I let you do what you wanted to do last year. I received your heart kindness giving Rafi to me, for I couldn’t be alone and I needed a friend to accompany me passing my days with my pain.”

I gaze her deeply. She looks so weak, but she stick try to looks strong, even though she is getting pain. My heart gets pain for I see my best friend like this. I have never imagined it can happen to Kiran, a spoiled girl. Why does it not happen to me? I’m willing if I must change her painfulness.

“Don’t gaze me like that Sof? I am not as painful as what you imagine. I am strong, even stronger than you which always look obstinate though brittle.” Kiran said softly.

“Why did you not share your pain with me and Rafi, Ran?” I asked disappointed.

“I didn’t want to increase your burden, because you two were broken. I have been very thankful for you two, since you two never let me feel alone.”

Kiran’s voice is slower than before. I can’t stop crying sob, and Rafi can’t either.

“Do you two still remember about the meaning of our friendship?” I asked to them.

“Friendship is not about who knows earlier, not about who knows more and not about whom more often together. But friend is who comes and never goes.” Rafi answered directly.

“Sof, Raf, you two are lucky, because you fall in love with your best friend.”

“I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend…”

Rafi and I are singing at the same time. Kiran smiles nicely. But my heart is sad. She looks such arrest her pain.

“Sof, don’t do what you did last year! A friend is someone who always remembers his friend in his pray. And that is what always Rafi do. He always involved us two in his days. Although Rafi has never met you for one year, you are always in his heart. And I know that you are same with Rafi, Sof.”

“What did you say Kiran? Don’t talk anymore, you will be more painful.” I said.

“Keep silent Ran!” Rafi said.

Kiran speaks little by little. “No, it’s time for me to go. I want to say what I want to say. I don’t intend to leave you two, but I can’t survive again. I’m happy, because I will go between you two.”

“I’m sad, why must we meet in situation like this.” I cursed.

“I hope you two will never be apart. I love you two.” 
Karin closes his eyes with saying God’s name. She breathes her last breath. She leans on Rafi’s shoulder while she is holding my hand. Her face is so beaming. She has just gone peacefully.

I know, this is the way of God. He collects us in condition like this. My friend has gone, but I still have Rafi, my best friend and my love.

I am very sad, and Rafi is too. We have lost our best friend. But she will stay in our heart, now and forever after. Because friend is who comes and never goes.

Where were you? (Cerpen)

       I was in junior high school. At the first time I came to my new school, I felt so happy. There were many friends. Time by time we’ve known each other and having friendship.
At the moment we have finished our lessons on grade 7 th, and so we’re grade 8 that day. There’s a new student in our classroom, he was a boy. Yeah a handsome boy!!. He’s really a cool boy but not clever very much. He was good on football.

       Formerly I was a shy girl, really shy girl!. I just wanna talk with girl and no boy. But I was a clever student especially in English. I got the first ranking on first and second semester of grade 7 th in our school. I never thought about love before, it’s because I always tried to focus on the lesson very much. But now I felt that there’s something happened in my heart. There were many questions running up in my mind every time.

       Everyday I looked at him, The new student!. I respected to him, time by time I felt that I fell in love with him. I thought about him before I went to sleep and every time. When I looked and met him, I always felt that my heart beat faster than usually. Yeah right! He is my first love. I never felt like that before. But I didn’t tell anyone about it included all of my friends. I thought they wouldn’t know that I loved a new student.

       At one day, I and my friend talked seriously. She told me who boy that she loved and she asked me to do the same. We made an agreement so that do not told anyone about this, and okay! we’ll promise. Tomorrow, She was talking with other friend and revealed my love secret not intentionally. Firstly I was a bit angry but i tried to forgive her.

       I didn’t know what happen. One of his friend always told me what Mr.Boy said. I thought he loved me too. He’s asking all around about me. He asked for my phone number, hair style, username of social media and the others about me. When hearing that, I fell so glad. He sent me messages. Firstly I tried not to reply her message but at last I replied his message. After that, we’re often message each other. We talked about everything and knew more each other. Yeah I’m really happy.

       Long time have been already over with all memorable moment although without love word until one day at our classroom, when he went classroom out, he talked loudly 
“I didn’t love her”

But anyone didn’t know what means that he said. Only my close friend heard what he talked. But when he said that, i didn’t hear clearly. Then my friend told me about his saying. I fell be so shy and sad. He has given me love sign, but actually those’re only false. I hate him, i hate him very much! Arrgh!.. Fine, I tried hardly to forget him.

       Long time already taken and now I didn’t love him again. We had my life usally without different and nothing special. But I fell alright, I enjoyed this moment with all of my friends. Suddenly when we’re on grade 9 th, a lot of pupil in our classroom were in tumult because one gossip especially me. Yeah! The gossip was talked about his feeling. His friend came back to said to everyone that he loved me. Haha! I just laughed and thought that was a false again. I didn’t care it much.

       All of his doing in class always made our friends mocked me and him that we’re in love, I fell an usual. But one day, he sent messages to my close friend, he told the fact that the gossip it’s true not just like gossip. My friend told what he said to me, erm I still didn’t care it. At a moment we had a task to sing. All of us were waiting our turn. When my turn were coming, I go to forwad the class and sang a song that it was bore a meaning like my feeling now. Next! Next. And when his turn were coming, he sang a song like were expressing his feeling that he loved me. All of my friends cheered to me. Haha!.

       That day, after I went home from school, I got an message and it was proved from him. Yeah I read it and the content he said he loved me. Aww aww, I just laughed alone. So I replied his message, I refused his love request. I thought it’s worth to him, to man who hurt the girl! Where were u past? And now you’re back, what did u want?. I’m sorry couldn’t be yours. But I would remember this story forever, it’s a memorable.